Essure….are you sure?!

August 2013 ( a little behind on my updates..trying to fill you all in) 😉

I know the title and picture are confusing…wait, permanent birth control?? I thought this girl wants to get pregnant?!

I was VERY confused too….let me explain…..

After I got the results of my HSG….I was devastated 🙁 My one and only tube was blocked….and to top it off I also have something called Hydrosalpinx I apparently have the hydrosalpinx from my ruptured appendix(at age 10) 🙁

Great…great…great…

So I only have one ovary….one tube…and that tube is blocked AND has this Hydrosal-crap!? Wow…weee….

My RE looks pretty deflated too…he proceeds to tell me that we have to take care of the hydrosalpinx before we even think about (my now only option of) IVF….what?!

You see….this fluid and damage to the tube could prevent pregnancy all together or if pregnancy was to occur the fluid could kill the embryo or an ectopic pregnancy could be the result.

He then proceeds to tell me about Essure. Yes, the same Essure that women who are OVERLY FERTILE use to PREVENT pregnancy forever…their “family is complete”…..ummm…yah…excuse me Doc…what was that?! I WANT to get pregnant…like more than anything in this world….and you want me to have surgery to permanently make me infertile?? Well, after reading up about it…apparently it is a fairly new procedure to help with hydrosalpinx. Before this option, they would just tie your tubes and then hope to have a successful IVF cycle. Another issue, with Essure….you get the procedure done through a hysteroscopy and then have to wait 3 months to see if it worked?!! 3 more months before even thinking about IVF…oh how my patience is being tested..

Now, decision time….what do I do??

After reading a great deal about it…I figure…I better cover ALL of my bases before we shell out the thousands of dollars for IVF. The thousands of dollars I’ve been saving since I was 21 to put towards a house (yes, I was one of the few financially smart 21 year olds in the world) now going towards starting our own family….

So, let’s do it…..next up Hysteroscopy/Essure (OMG…sooo scared!)…here we come…

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So 3 pregnant women walk into Starbucks….

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I swear…everyone is pregnant….but me…

I just congratulated one of my friends on the birth of her baby boy…just happened literally 10 min ago….

I am truly happy for her…ya see…she is…shhh…one of US!

She was very private about her life for a long time. We thought they were just waiting to have kids…one year went by…then another…then another…and finally she broke the news to us..after 3 years…they couldn’t have a baby…she got pregnant twice but miscarried both times…another year went by…and by 5 years she and her husband were ready to take the next step and were very lucky to adopt a newborn within months (I know, unheard of with domestic but they were in the right place at the right time)…very happy with their baby, another year goes by…and then they decided to take the next step and add to their family….they were starting IVF……..

Well, wouldn’t ya know…..the month before they started stims…she missed her period…not thinking too much about it she took a pregnancy test as protocol before starting the process….and positive…after trying for over 6 years…naturally pregnant and positive…

I know…I can just hear you all thinking…..”‘I can’t believe she’s telling us another one of THOSE stories”….but THIS is what gives me hope….I actually KNOW this person who this happened to….and it’s true….not just some passed along story to make you feel better about not being pregnant yet…

So…I sit here….and wait….wait for MY time….I don’t know when that’s gonna be….but I’m giving up trying to plan it all out. I’m officially waving that white flag. I’ll go through the process, take the shots, go to the Dr. appt.’s, spend the obscene amounts of money and PRAY….pray that one day I can have my own story…my own little bundle of joy to call my own….

And wouldn’t ya know it….as I sit here writing this…3…yes…3 pregnant women walk into Starbucks…..(insert white flag)

Ummmm……yah…….I’ll have what they’re having…..