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I swear…everyone is pregnant….but me…

I just congratulated one of my friends on the birth of her baby boy…just happened literally 10 min ago….

I am truly happy for her…ya see…she is…shhh…one of US!

She was very private about her life for a long time. We thought they were just waiting to have kids…one year went by…then another…then another…and finally she broke the news to us..after 3 years…they couldn’t have a baby…she got pregnant twice but miscarried both times…another year went by…and by 5 years she and her husband were ready to take the next step and were very lucky to adopt a newborn within months (I know, unheard of with domestic but they were in the right place at the right time)…very happy with their baby, another year goes by…and then they decided to take the next step and add to their family….they were starting IVF……..

Well, wouldn’t ya know…..the month before they started stims…she missed her period…not thinking too much about it she took a pregnancy test as protocol before starting the process….and positive…after trying for over 6 years…naturally pregnant and positive…

I know…I can just hear you all thinking…..”‘I can’t believe she’s telling us another one of THOSE stories”….but THIS is what gives me hope….I actually KNOW this person who this happened to….and it’s true….not just some passed along story to make you feel better about not being pregnant yet…

So…I sit here….and wait….wait for MY time….I don’t know when that’s gonna be….but I’m giving up trying to plan it all out. I’m officially waving that white flag. I’ll go through the process, take the shots, go to the Dr. appt.’s, spend the obscene amounts of money and PRAY….pray that one day I can have my own story…my own little bundle of joy to call my own….

And wouldn’t ya know it….as I sit here writing this…3…yes…3 pregnant women walk into Starbucks…..(insert white flag)

Ummmm……yah…….I’ll have what they’re having…..