Just got back from my RE’s office…had a minor melt down in my car…
After thinking I might trigger tonight or tomorrow, I have to stim for 5 more days 🙁 I’m on Stim Day 12 today…I really try not to complain but after they called in my new order of even MORE meds(I’m on a very high dose already)…the cost of it all put me over the edge. Thousands more. I’ve tried to be so strong throughout all of this…and I’m praying it will be worth it in the end but giving myself 4-5 shots a day and suppositories and acupuncture…I’m just over it all.
Man, these hormones are finally kicking in…overdrive 🙁
I think about my Mom and sister and how it was SO easy for them to get pregnant. My sister accidentally got pregnant on birth control TWICE. I know I can’t compare myself to others but it’s so hard when it’s your family. I actually haven’t told my sister anything about me going through IVF and only a little to my Mom. I just don’t think they would get it.
All of you ladies dealing with infertility get it. It absolutely breaks my heart to see so many of you going through numerous IVFs…you are so, so strong. I mean really…look at what we do. We are beyond amazing….
Through all of this though….I am STILL thankful. I can somehow still say thanks to the man up above to guide me and give me the opportunity to go through IVF. No matter how sad, anxious, impatient, tired, sore, etc…I am still thankful.
Writing this post actually made me feel a little better….a little writing therapy 🙂
I’ll continue to count down the days….pray for a couple of healthy eggs…it only takes one right??
One golden egg…I hope you are growing somewhere in that solo ovary of mine…please…