Category: Power of Prayer

That Elusive Golden Egg…

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Just got back from my RE’s office…had a minor melt down in my car…

After thinking I might trigger tonight or tomorrow, I have to stim for 5 more days 🙁 I’m on Stim Day 12 today…I really try not to complain but after they called in my new order of even MORE meds(I’m on a very high dose already)…the cost of it all put me over the edge. Thousands more. I’ve tried to be so strong throughout all of this…and I’m praying it will be worth it in the end but giving myself 4-5 shots a day and suppositories and acupuncture…I’m just over it all.

Man, these hormones are finally kicking in…overdrive 🙁

I think about my Mom and sister and how it was SO easy for them to get pregnant. My sister accidentally got pregnant on birth control TWICE. I know I can’t compare myself to others but it’s so hard when it’s your family. I actually haven’t told my sister anything about me going through IVF and only a little to my Mom. I just don’t think they would get it.

All of you ladies dealing with infertility get it. It absolutely breaks my heart to see so many of you going through numerous IVFs…you are so, so strong. I mean really…look at what we do. We are beyond amazing….

Through all of this though….I am STILL thankful. I can somehow still say thanks to the man up above to guide me and give me the opportunity to go through IVF. No matter how sad, anxious, impatient, tired, sore, etc…I am still thankful.

Writing this post actually made me feel a little better….a little writing therapy 🙂

I’ll continue to count down the days….pray for a couple of healthy eggs…it only takes one right??

One golden egg…I hope you are growing somewhere in that solo ovary of mine…please…

Missed Calls

It was yesterday morning. We were out of town on vacation…celebrating our anniversary. My husband woke up to numerous missed phone calls and texts. He knew something was wrong. He called back the first person who called him…a co-worker. His face drew worried….his eyes welled up….an accident? A stroke? I couldn’t hear anything and was panicked beside him…..he hung up.

One of his best friends was on life support…it seemed he had a stroke……silence…..gut wrenching silence….

Tears poured down my face….I thought of him and then thought of his wife. Like us, they are going through infertility. They’ve been married for 8 years and have been trying for a baby for about 3 years now. We recently talked about how on our next vacation, we hope to both be pregnant….and now, her husband is on life support. How everything gets thrown into perspective. How my heart aches for her. How one day, they are posting fun, happy pictures on facebook and the next day in ICU at the hospital.

I’m honestly still in shock and can’t believe I am even able to type this…but I know the power of prayer….and I know by reaching out and asking for help in praying….we can help them through this….

So please friends, if you wouldn’t mind offering up some prayers…they need some during this dark time….let’s shine the light of prayers upon them….bless them lord…..heal him….grant them peace….

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