Category: IVF Meds

Stim Day 6 and Talk of Surrogacy????

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So, I just went in to my RE’s office to have my Stim Day 6 ultrasound check. I’m on IVF#2 right now. They see around 4-6 follicles…11.5-8 range…they are growing faster this time around(please don’t let me stim for 17 days like last time :(. The only thing different is that instead of birth control before stims, I used estrogen pills.

So, to me, that’s not bad news. I only have one ovary and 4-6 follicles seems good to me…well, maybe not good…but decent enough…I’m looking for ONE AMAZING EGG folks…not a kindergarten class…

But then, there’s my lining. I’ve never seen it above 5. Last cycle, that’s what it grew to and so we froze my one baby morula stage embryo.

Now, we haven’t done much for the lining. I took some extra estrogen to try to help it grow…but it got to 5..and that’s it. I know that this could be a problem. But today, my very sweet Dr., just casually mentioned, “Well, after we get these embryos, what are we going to do with them if your lining doesn’t cooperate”

And that was it folks….the waterworks and tears began pouring down. 🙁

I haven’t even began to think about that….Surrogacy?? What?

I mean…wait…wait..wait….we haven’t tried ALL the tricks yet! Sure a little estrogen is supposed to do the trick…but apparently, that doesn’t work for me…so on to the next trick. Endometrial scratch? Viagra? G-CSF?

I will LITERALLY TRY ANYTHING and everything…..before I even THINK about that route.

Gosh, but then of course it made me think…I do have a sister, She’s had 2 babies very easily on her own. She’s done having kids. Would she do that for me? Could she? I don’t know…..Again, I don’t even want my mind to go there 🙁

I won’t let it…

So, today got me a little down…and then…with the tears streaming down my face…I picked up my phone to leave and must have accidentally(I don’t really believe in accidents..I know it’s Him 😉 I pressed some buttons as I squeezed the phone in my hand and a song came on…loud and clear…just started playing…..it’s a song that always makes me smile and want to dance…I used to play it when I had boyfriend problems…now, I’m having “other” kinds of problems…still makes me smile…Mary J Blige’s “I’m Fine”:

So, I know I’ll be fine…just have to keep telling myself that..now let’s make it through this cycle with at least one healthy egg that will become a baby…that’s all I’m asking for is one 😉

IVF #2…ready…set…GO!

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Well, here we are. 2014.

On to bigger and better things….like BABIES.

I’m calling it right now…I will be pregnant this year(and I KNOW a bunch of you will be too!). No ifs, ands or buts about it. Last year, in my mind, I would tell myself…well, maybe this will be our year….but guess what….that girl is out the door! No more maybes and more….this WILL be our year for babies! Power of POSITIVE thinking…and praying to God every second of every day. I know I don’t have much control over this whole thing…but positive thinking never hurt anyone….right?

So…IVF #2…I start stims this Monday, January 6, 2014. I’m doing a little different protocol. Instead of birth control pills, my RE has me on 2mg of Estrace twice a day. Yesterday was my last pill. I’m feeling better about this cycle. I know what to expect. I can give myself the shots with my eyes closed (even though I still don’t like them). The cost of it all STILL boggles my mind. If you don’t have insurance, you better have some savings or GREAT credit cards (with high limits like we do 🙂 Unfortunately, I have to stim on really high amounts of meds too (like 450 UI Gonal-F a day and 150UI of Menopur :(……last cycle it was for 17 days…ugg….let’s just say my meds cost more than my entire IVF cycle with my Dr…yah. But I’m not complaining or worrying. It’s only money right? Only money…

Anyways…just wanted to update quickly…I’m on the search for some meds…this is what you do when your insurance doesn’t cover anything…craigslist is your friend…I’ll write another post about that soon..

So…here’s to the new year and new opportunities…

IVF #2…let’s do this!!