Category: Gestational Carrier

So Happy Yet So Sad

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So many times, I didn’t understand….
This life…living with infertility…you ask “why?’ so often…hoping to get an answer…hoping to know what to do next…
But you don’t….
You just keep going..
And now…..fortunately….I am one of the lucky ones…yes, as I type this, I am finally looking at my son. Sure I had to go through numerous doctors, surgeries, IVF cycles, FET cycles and not even being able to carry my own child, having to use a gestational carrier…but he is finally here.
And I am so, so happy…
But then…I can never forget…..there are others…like my dear, sweet friend Isabelle of In Quest of a Binky Moongee, who has literally tried almost everything and just yesterday had her gestational carrier beta and it came back very low.

And I think….why?? Just does not make sense. If you know her story…she deserves this so much. She has also been one of my biggest supporters and that shows grace after all she has been through…she is beautiful and kind and I want to see her holding her child..

Gosh….I know I keep saying this….but I do not get it….

I just want Isabelle to know that she is loved and I will be here for her through it all.

I may be so happy now…but my friend is hurting…..and it’s not right…

I am happy but hurting…did not think it was possible…but it is…

In this community, we are a family…and one of our family members is hurting…please send your prayers and love to her today….thank you all




No Longer Dreaming….

After almost 5 years…4 full IVF cycles…7 FET’s…and my angel of a sister gestational surrogate….

He is here!

The baby whose face I could not see….but knew in my heart I would one day meet….7lbs 3oz….21 inches long…

Baby W…..

You are everything and more little man….

I will update with all of the details soon…..

But it happened….this long road….finally happened…..

Still in shock……and too many happy tears…lots and lots of tears…..

I always believed in miracles……….and now I have one……thank you God for this blessing….

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