Category: Fertility Testing

IVF #2…ready…set…GO!

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Well, here we are. 2014.

On to bigger and better things….like BABIES.

I’m calling it right now…I will be pregnant this year(and I KNOW a bunch of you will be too!). No ifs, ands or buts about it. Last year, in my mind, I would tell myself…well, maybe this will be our year….but guess what….that girl is out the door! No more maybes and more….this WILL be our year for babies! Power of POSITIVE thinking…and praying to God every second of every day. I know I don’t have much control over this whole thing…but positive thinking never hurt anyone….right?

So…IVF #2…I start stims this Monday, January 6, 2014. I’m doing a little different protocol. Instead of birth control pills, my RE has me on 2mg of Estrace twice a day. Yesterday was my last pill. I’m feeling better about this cycle. I know what to expect. I can give myself the shots with my eyes closed (even though I still don’t like them). The cost of it all STILL boggles my mind. If you don’t have insurance, you better have some savings or GREAT credit cards (with high limits like we do 🙂 Unfortunately, I have to stim on really high amounts of meds too (like 450 UI Gonal-F a day and 150UI of Menopur :(……last cycle it was for 17 days…ugg….let’s just say my meds cost more than my entire IVF cycle with my Dr…yah. But I’m not complaining or worrying. It’s only money right? Only money…

Anyways…just wanted to update quickly…I’m on the search for some meds…this is what you do when your insurance doesn’t cover anything…craigslist is your friend…I’ll write another post about that soon..

So…here’s to the new year and new opportunities…

IVF #2…let’s do this!!

I Can’t Wait To Have A Baby

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CAN’T WAIT.

It’s funny that I write that because…..I have no choice but to wait. I have no choice. Some of you reading this have no choice. But….to….wait…….

We have so many choices in life…but this one….WHEN we are going to have a baby….it’s not really up to us….

I’ve tried that…I’m taking ALL of the supplements…I’ve read ALL of the books and googled everything. I’m going to acupuncture every week. Taking the herbs she recommends. I Have a Reproductive Endocrinologist. I’ve had ALL of the surgeries he suggested. I stuck myself with 5 needles a day. I’ve been through the “holy grail” of IVF…thought that would give us our baby…that’s what happens with most people…right?………

But no baby…more waiting….

And yesterday, when I needed answers, I read this from my daily devotional:

“I am working on your behalf. Bring Me all your concerns, including your dreams. Talk with Me about everything, letting the Light of My Presence shine on your hopes and plans. Spend time allowing My Light to infuse your dreams with life, gradually transforming them into reality. This is a very practical way of collaborating with Me. I, the Creator of the universe, have deigned to co-create with you. Do not try to hurry the process. If you want to work with Me, you have to accept My time frame. Hurry is not in My nature. Abraham and Sarah had to wait many years for the fulfillment of My promise, a son. How their long wait intensified their enjoyment of this child! Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses.

“For with You is the fountain of life;
    in Your light do we see light.” Psalm 36:9

And now….I get it. I always knew deep down that it’s not on my time. I’ve been trying to force it to happen though…..and that’s not how it works….

I CAN wait to have a baby

I WILL wait to have a baby

And WHEN I am blessed with a child, I will understand that THIS is the time….THIS is my time…

My time to have a baby…..when will that be?

2014? 2015? I guess we will all have to wait and see…….