Month: March 2016

Ultrasound (Gestational Carrier/Surrogate)

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So here we are….ultrasound time.

I’ve been a bag of nerves I tell ya…I mean, how can I not be??

I have no control. This baby is in someone else’s body. It’s a blessing that it happens to be my very own sister…but still….it’s not my body.

And, let’s be real, true control is in God’s hands…so worrying is just worthless.

I decided, from the start of using a gestational carrier, that it was just going to work. Period.

I could not fathom it not working after everything we had already been through and then going through the long, drawn out, trying process of using a gestational carrier, giving up my dream of being pregnant, etc…..it’s just gotta work..right??

So with the first beta down and the second….it was ultrasound time….

This was it…..with my sister, my husband and I in the room(along with ALL of the nurses, staff, etc..ha!)

I am so very happy to announce:

We have one little babe growing..and with a strong heartbeat!

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Tears of joy rolled down my face when I saw that flicker!

It was surreal.

Not my uterus, not my body….but my baby….our baby…..wow.

What God and the science He has allowed to flourish is blessing us with is unexplainable.

Truly in awe.

And thankful. And hopeful.

And happy.

I haven’t felt “happy” in a long time. Like…a really long time.

My husband handed me a card after the ultrasound. He filled it out before we even knew….and this is what part of it read:

“Your endurance, frustration, sadness and determination have culminated to one of the single most wonderful emotions….JOY!”

Joy..yes…our embaby…Joy.

He ended the card with “Happy Heartbeat Day! 2016”

Yes…finally a happy day in that ultrasound room.

So, so many days had ended in ugly, sad tears…3+ years worth of ugly tears in that very room.

Finally some happy tears…..

Tears of Joy indeed.

Keep growing little Joy, can’t wait to see you again in 2 weeks!

 

Beta #2 (Gestational Carrier/Surrogate)

My sister had her blood drawn at 7:30am…and it’s now 4:45pm…

I couldn’t concentrate all day long. Kept calling…and calling…

Unfortunately, it wasn’t listed as STAT for some reason so they were not even sure if it would come back today….what?!…..no 🙁

But

I got the call. Just before closing time…..

 

 

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Oh my!!!!! Eeeek!! Doubling rate of of 44.37 hrs!

Please, please let this be real.

Keep on growing little one!!

No more betas…..first ultrasound in 2 weeks!!!!

Thank you for all of your good wishes and prayers….I think they are working!

Love and blessings to you all!