Gutted…..

Our best A graded embryo didn’t survive the thaw…

Thawed another and that one does not look good either

Deciding now if we thaw another….

Can’t stop crying…..

Why is this happening?

I do not understand this constant pain and struggle

Don’t know if I ever will

 

40 Comments on With Infertility, Plans Mean Nothing….

  1. I have been waiting on pins and needles for you…. I keep reading your updates and I tear up every single time. There are no words for you right now but I am sure all of your readers’ hearts are breaking for you right now. I truly do not know how you keep fighting on for your unborn child. You are my hero! All the power in the universe to you, your husband and sister.

  2. I feel nauseous reading this! I felt a blow to my own stomach! The only thing I keep thinking is this is a test! This is only a test! Keep fighting for your embabies because you will hold them in less than a year!

  3. I am so sorry… It is never easy to hear such news. Stay strong. Easier said than done, I know. I was hoping for our first IUI to be done at the beginning of February, but we went in to find I will be getting surgery March 1st to remove a cyst on my ovary. πŸ™ I, too cried, and had a difficult time, but know that God only hands us what we can handle. You WILL get through this, I have a lot of faith! XO

  4. I know that words don’t do much in times like these. But I wanted to share something from a friend’s blog that brings me hope whenever I think about the only little embryo we have left: “I didn’t cry when I saw the positive pregnancy test or when I got out of the 12 week scan. I hardly shed a tear when the midwife put her on my chest after she was born. But all tears came up when I saw her next to us and heard my husband say β€œthe IVF doctor was right: ugly embryos can also make beautiful babies”.” Sending support and hugs.

  5. My heart breaks for you right now!! I have been anxious to read your posts today. My ‘word’ through our infertility journey has been hope. I have hope for you that you will one day hold your baby/babies! I know this process is devastating and some days it feels like there are no positives. I understand your feeling of let down, after let down, after let down. I’m praying for you right now!❀️

  6. I literally cried reading this. Like hard sobbing. I was so excited for today for you. I’m so incredibly sorry. I can’t tell you how much we all hurt for you. I’ll light a candle for you and your family tonight.

  7. I’m so, so sorry to read this. My heart is so sad and heavy…grieving with you. Sending you love and prayers. Please don’t lose heart. You will have your family one way or another. xoxox

  8. Oh no! I am so so shocked to read this and I am devastated for you. Totally unfair. Know that you are all in my thoughts and I am sending lots of love.

  9. Omg! I can only imagine what you’re going through. Reading this makes me sad and confused. I will never understand why those who don’t want or those that just shouldn’t be parents are and then those who would be amazing parents have so much trouble. I know that sometimes life isn’t fair but COME ON!

  10. This must feel so discouraging. However, to bring you hope, the end result is never dependent solely of the grading or the appearance of the embryos. All bets are off after it implants. My very slow embie, who lost a cell during thaw, but kept on dividing stubbornly, is now 18+5. I wish you best of luck and strength to overcome this disappointment.

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