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Sometimes, on days like this, I’m consumed with “figuring out” why my lining refuses to grow.

So, of course, I turn to Dr. Google. But you know what the saddest part about that is? Researching the SAME topic for almost 4 years yields the same results you’ve seen for almost 4 years. Never really anything new. So I re-read articles that I’ve read many times before…and sometimes, you find something you may have missed…some inspiration.

One of the articles, or research papers I’m talking about is this one:

http://www.researchgate.net/publication/260994775_Live_birth_after_embryo_transfer_in_an_unresponsive_thin_endometrium

Reasearchgate.net has provided me with a lot of information about our health and bodies in general, but this article seems like it was written for me to read. Here, a 35 yr-old woman with premature ovarian failure and atrophic/thin endometrium gave birth to a child….and her lining measurement at transfer was a whopping 3.5mm. Yes, I typed that correctly, 3.5mm folks.

Now, most people would say….”Why in the world would they transfer an embryo into a uterus with that measurement in the first place?!?” Well, first of all, where she is from, surrogacy is illegal and second, because of a little test called the ERA Test, Endometrial Receptivity Array.

It can basically tell you if your lining is “pre-receptive”, “receptive”, or “post-receptive”. Some people are having failed IVF’s and FET’s simply due to the fact that they are transferring their embryo on the wrong day. Most people have a 5 day transfer of a 5 day blastocyst, but some people need a 6 day transfer of a 5 day blast, or a 7 day transfer…and some opposite…some need a 4 day transfer, etc. How exciting that they can take a biopsy and it can show if it’s receptive to an embryo or not!? I think this is such a breakthrough and I believe will help a lot of women.

So that brings it back to me. Me and my chronically thin lining. It has plagued me for YEARS. If you’ve followed me for a while, you know this. At one point last year, every single month, I went through the FET process. ALL the pills, shots, meds, ultrasounds, etc…..and every, single time…it was cancelled due to thin lining. Just exhausting.

Now, I’ve known about this ERA test for almost 2 years. I just thought my lining needed to be more at 6mm to really try it. I guess when I read this paper, I missed the 3.5mm! How in the world could I miss that part?

So that’s what I’m going to do. If my lining is at 4mm….I’m still going to do the test. If it surprises me and gets to 6mm or dare I say 7mm, I’ll try it then too.

I mean, at this point, I have nothing to lose. More time? Well, that’s happening as we speak. More money? Well, this is why we work and don’t own a home.

Surrogacy is my next plan…and that “plan” of mine was stopped before it could even begin.

So is this it? Could this be the missing piece of the puzzle to me bringing home my embabies??

In MY very own uterus??

Only time will tell, I currently have a cyst(that’s been hanging around for 2 months! boo) so that needs to disappear and after that I’ll have a 4th hysteroscopy and then try to grow this lining for the biopsy for the ERA. It’s a long process but I’ve got nothing but time….time and faith that all of this will bring me my babies.

My embryos that have been frozen for almost 2 years…..2 years.

I won’t stop…I haven’t forgotten about you babies…I just want to give you a safe home to grow.

So that’s what I’m determined to do…..and it WILL happen…

Some way….some how….it will happen.

Mark my word….I won’t stop until it does. Period.