So I left you all last week with some pretty good news….9 eggs retrieved and 6 eggs fertilized. I was so happy with that number. Of course, the one issue that I always have is chronically thin lining…and it was still thin. I feel like no matter what I do…it just won’t grow and it is beyond frustrating.
But I decided to focus on the good. I mean 6 fertilized eggs….so happy 🙂
And then all changed in an instant.
They were gone.
By day 3, all 6….gone.
As my RE told me…I just sat numb.
And then of course tears(strength crumbled)
Here, I had been crying all along for my thin lining….and now…more tears for no embryos.
For a 3rd time. All of this work. All of this planning. All of this money. All of this time. All of this pain. All of this emotion. All of this hope.
I’m still in shock.
And to be completely honest I am beyond devastated.
I’ve tried and tried and tried to be so strong on this journey…but I just can’t right now.
So that’s all friends. I needed to update you all. You have been there for me through all of this nightmare and I appreciate each and every one of you. I just need a break from all of this. I need to breathe and I need to heal.
Thank you again for your support and congrats to you all who have gotta positive news. I am truly happy for you. Honestly, to me it just means that there’s more happiness out there and my time will come…I know this. I know one day I will be a part of it…but for now, I’m not and I just need to breathe.
Thank you for understanding and I’ll be thinking of each and every one of you.