Ugh! So, this happened yesterday.
I went in to have my sonohystogram. I’ve already had 2 from my first 2 IVF cycles so I know the drill. For me, this sono is more painful than the HSG…I know, weird because most women it’s opposite but who knows…my body is weird and different..and frankly not normal.
And here it goes again being “not normal”again. My RE didn’t even really feel like we needed to do this but I said, “Let’s just do it to be safe”.
Well, the results are not great. I have a small, either polyp or more scar tissue(darn you scar tissue!) that’s on one side of my uterus. Now, my RE didn’t seem too phased….umm….What??!! He said, well, it could be those things or a blood clot(because I was still bleeding) or it could just go away on it’s own. He also said that if my lining looks great(7mm+) then there is no harm in trying with one embryo…..Hmmmm…o.k….but you guys…it doesn’t look good right now…seriously looks like a “speed bump” in my uterus. I’m not sure that I even want to put an embryo in there! But, I’ve never had lining grow past barely 6mm. Maybe this “little bump” is my lining FINALLY healing??? Maybe this is the next step in the right direction???
I’m trying to be positive with all of this (even though in my car I did shed a tear or two….I mean, can we give a girl a break??). I’m trying to believe that…maybe if I go through this 3rd IVF cycle and my lining is great and we decided to proceed with a transfer that maybe the little growth is there for a reason?? And if we are not able to transfer then I will have ANOTHER hysteroscopy (I think my 4th or 5th?). Clean out whatever is in there and then maybe my lining will recover??
What I do know though is that God is telling me to keep going and keep believing in myself.
So I will do just that.
I start stims for IVF#3 this Friday night.
I know there is a reason why I am doing this all again.
I know in my heart my babies are on their way. If this is my path…I will do whatever it takes to get them here with me.
A bump in the
road uterus…is just that…
Just a bump…maybe it will lead to another bump??
Some bumps are not bad. Some bumps lead to others and I’m believing that this one will lead me to the one I have always dreamed of having…
A Baby Bump.
Bring on the bumps…I’m ready for the ride!