Sorry I didn’t update yesterday but my appt was late in the day and then I had a dinner meeting after….so I’ll just make this a quick one.
I pretty much gave up on this cycle…I mean, my lining was 3.7mm on CD 13(ish) and yesterday, CD 16 it was……..5.1mm (with 2 21mm follicles on my only ovary ready to ovulate…oh how I wish I had tubes again 🙁
Now, most people would be SO upset for a 5.1mm lining on CD16 BUT….I’m feeling a little better that it’s at least not 4mm…and it did look a tad more “fluffy” on the ultrasound….and DARE I say that my RE seemed a bit more optimistic??! He actually said that if we could get it up to closer to 6mm then we could try to transfer one embryo….OMG…seriously..I might be able to actually have a transfer at some point!?
Now, I KNOW 5-6mm lining is NOT good….and frankly, most people would never transfer an embryo with that thin of a lining….but, the one thing I’ve learned through ALL of this is that….
We are all different.
There is not ONE set formula for us all.
You have to listen to your gut and take chances sometimes.
So, where do we go from here?
Well, this FET #5 cycle is cancelled. I’m not willing to transfer in a 5.1mm lining(neither is RE) and because of Thanksgiving we wouldn’t have been able to anyways. I will go in next Mon to get my blood drawn to check my Progesterone level(just as an ovulation marker) and I will wait for CD1 to figure out if we are going to do anything in Dec or just wait until Jan. My RE suggested since it seemed like the Tamoxifen was doing something that maybe another month of that plus Estrogen or some injectables? Trial and error I guess….
I still feel the need to try G-CSF…my RE has never done it before though and he doesn’t seem on board…might have to give him a little push…so we will see.
Wish I had better news but I’m o.k. I really just feel like these are just steps to me getting to where I want to be….pregnant and delivering a healthy baby in 2015. Like a process. I just keep thinking that at the end of ALL of this, I WILL have a beautiful baby(or babies) in my arms and none of this will matter.
I must remember……….NONE OF THIS WILL MATTER.
I just have to keep telling myself that….and then….everything is alright.
Happy Thanksgiving to my fellow American bloggers!
Love & blessings to you all!