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So after IVF #1, IVF #2 and 1 cancelled FET, it was time to go back in my uterus to see exactly what is going on and why my lining was not growing….

Instead of having my RE do another hysteroscopy (he did the first one in August 2013), I decided to do my research and find one of the best surgeons for Asherman’s Sydrome in the world. I am so very blessed that he happens to be in the same city I live in. Also, I emailed him my history and, not kidding, 5 minutes after I sent my email I got a phone call….from the Dr HIMSELF!!! I was shocked to say the least…in a good way. To have one of the most reputable Dr.’s in the world care enough to call me and talk about my issues…free of charge….was priceless. He didn’t even push or mention coming to see him…he spent over 30 min on the phone with me, just to help…needless to say, I did set an appt…he won me over and I believe he was sent to me…and this is the next step towards my dream of becoming a mother true 🙂

On Thursday, April 10, I went into surgery. This would be the 4th time going under in 7 months…my body is hating me. Getting put under general anesthesia is tough on me for some reason…but I will survive. And I did. It’s never pleasant. Also, for the second time, I had a stent inside of my uterus. It’s placed there to hold my uterine lining “in place” I guess you can say?? The Dr. went in and saw some more scar tissue. He surgically removed it (did NOT do a D & C to remove the scar tissue) Apparently, when you do a D&C to remove scar tissue, you are actually causing more damage 🙁 I didn’t know that the first time…so please…if you have scar tissue they need to use scissors to “break it up” and then place a Cook Stent in to assume the normal structure of your uterus. I’m sure it’s a LOT more technical….but that’s what I’ve learned and I want you all to learn from my mistakes..

The stent was taken out yesterday during our follow-up visit. And, I suggest taking some sort of pain medicine….because I didn’t and it was…really, really painful. I don’t like to complain. And I am SUPER tough with pain…but this was bad. It has something to do with the way the Cook Stent is formed(like a triangle). But I survived…just take something first 🙂 He went over some pictures. Showed me where the scar tissue was and talked about some “bald spots” within my uterus. It sure doesn’t sound good and it’s not ;( So I am taking 4 mg of Estradiol everyday for 21 days, 800mg Trental a day, 1000mg Vitamin E everyday and I’ll take progesterone days 17-21.

Also, because I don’t have enough things going on….he couldn’t find the Essure coil that was placed inside my only fallopian tube to prevent my hydrosalpinx…what? He said it could be just farther up my tube or it could just be “floating” around?? So I need to get another HSG…oh joy…because having dye pushed through, already diagnosed, blocked tubes is so much fun 🙁 I guess they need to see if it’s there and doing it’s job of blocking the hydrosalpinx…yay(insert sarcasm smilie)..

And then we will wait. And wait some more…..

I’m getting used to waiting. Getting put under. Getting cut. Getting stabbed . Getting cramps. Getting headaches. Getting nauseas. Getting broke. Getting used to it all.

Accepting it, I won’t. I won’t accept anything but a baby at the end of this infertility marathon. I really didn’t think I was strong enough for 1/2 of the things I’ve already gone through….not even a 1/4….but I have and I will. I’ve got my eye on a prize and nothing will get in my way. I’m not sad for myself. I’m thankful for all of these opportunities that will ultimately heal me.It must be God’s way of telling me, I’m on the right path.

Thankful for all of these doctors working on me. Thankful for the strength it has given me. Thankful for my renewed appreciation of life. Thankful for my future.

Every day I get closer to my dream…I know I will be a mother one day….I won’t lose focus

How long will I wait for my baby? I’m not going anywhere…..ever