Month: January 2014

IVF #2: Stim Days 1-10

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So here we go again 🙂 Here’s the whole update of how this cycle has gone so far:

*Instead of birth control before stimming, this cycle we did Estrogen. I took 1-2mg Estradiol AM and PM 2 weeks before stimming began

January 3-Ultrasound to make sure my ovary is “quiet” No cysts, small follicles. All looks good to start stims in 2 days.

SD=Stim Day

SD 1-January 5-Start 450IU Gonal-F & 150IU Menopur only in PM

SD 2-January 6– 450IU Gonal-F & 150 IU Menopur only in PM

SD3-January 7– Acupuncture in the afternoon. 300IU Gonal-F & 150IU Menopur only in PM

SD4-January 8– 300 UI Gonal-F & 150 IU Menopur only in PM

SD5-January 9– AM Bloodwork-results E2=362(better than last time was only 69) 300IU Gonal-F & 150IU Menopur only in PM….start feeling sick tonight though…scratchy throat :(((

SD6-January 10-AM Ultrasound results-between 4-6 follicles growing…12,8,8,6(what I could kind of get for measurements?).  I only have one ovary so that’s good enough for me 🙂 Continue to watch.  300IU Gonal-F & 150IU Menopur only in PM. Feeling more sick…oh no, I think I’ve got a bad cold 🙁 great

SD7-January 11– SICK, SICK, SICK…sore throat, stuffy nose, headache…everything..just perfect to go along with IVF 🙁 Oh well…rest all day and then 300IU Gonal-F & 150IU Menopur only in PM

SD8-January 12– Still sick 🙁 Taking tons of Vitamin C(didn’t ask my RE..oops) maybe it will help? I start Ganirelix(250mc prefilled shot) and Saizen(.5) in the AM and 300IU Gonal-F & 150IU Menopur only in PM, Still sick…stuffy nose, coughing…yuck 🙁

SD9-January 13– Lots of EWCM in AM. Ultrasound: 16,15,11,12,9 Much better than last cycle. Moving faster this time around. Lining was 6.2. My RE still doesn’t like the way it looks, still too thin,  start vaginal estrogen supplements in AM & PM. Acupuncture in afternoon…ask her to help with lining and my sickness…please get me better 🙂 Ganirelix(250mc prefilled shot) and Saizen(.5) in the AM and 300IU Follistim(had to switch to Follistim because I ran out of Gonal-F…RE said it was ok) & 150IU Menopur only in PM

SD10-January 14-EWCM. Ultrasound-17, 16,15,14,12,10 I’ll come back tomorrow to see if we will trigger? Lining back down to 5.1 with some mucus?? Arg! Lining…looking more like we will have to do FET later. So let’s just focus on the eggs :)Ganirelix(250mc prefilled shot) and Saizen(.5) in the AM and 300IU Follistim & 150IU Menopur only in PM, and Estrogen Suppositories AM & PM(a LOT of stuff in me…ahh!) Still sick but better, actually much better after acupuncture yesterday.

Now today. January 15-Ultrasound: 18,18,16,15,13,12(again a guess, because I couldn’t see exactly what they wrote). One more day/night of stims..they want some other eggs to catch up..so I’ll go back tomorrow for final ultrasound and we will prob trigger with Ovidrel tomorrow night 🙂 Saturday retrieval!

If you all could please keep me in your prayers..thank you…..just want a couple of perfectly cooked eggs(that will become healthy embryos..and babies 🙂

Stim Day 6 and Talk of Surrogacy????

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So, I just went in to my RE’s office to have my Stim Day 6 ultrasound check. I’m on IVF#2 right now. They see around 4-6 follicles…11.5-8 range…they are growing faster this time around(please don’t let me stim for 17 days like last time :(. The only thing different is that instead of birth control before stims, I used estrogen pills.

So, to me, that’s not bad news. I only have one ovary and 4-6 follicles seems good to me…well, maybe not good…but decent enough…I’m looking for ONE AMAZING EGG folks…not a kindergarten class…

But then, there’s my lining. I’ve never seen it above 5. Last cycle, that’s what it grew to and so we froze my one baby morula stage embryo.

Now, we haven’t done much for the lining. I took some extra estrogen to try to help it grow…but it got to 5..and that’s it. I know that this could be a problem. But today, my very sweet Dr., just casually mentioned, “Well, after we get these embryos, what are we going to do with them if your lining doesn’t cooperate”

And that was it folks….the waterworks and tears began pouring down. 🙁

I haven’t even began to think about that….Surrogacy?? What?

I mean…wait…wait..wait….we haven’t tried ALL the tricks yet! Sure a little estrogen is supposed to do the trick…but apparently, that doesn’t work for me…so on to the next trick. Endometrial scratch? Viagra? G-CSF?

I will LITERALLY TRY ANYTHING and everything…..before I even THINK about that route.

Gosh, but then of course it made me think…I do have a sister, She’s had 2 babies very easily on her own. She’s done having kids. Would she do that for me? Could she? I don’t know…..Again, I don’t even want my mind to go there 🙁

I won’t let it…

So, today got me a little down…and then…with the tears streaming down my face…I picked up my phone to leave and must have accidentally(I don’t really believe in accidents..I know it’s Him 😉 I pressed some buttons as I squeezed the phone in my hand and a song came on…loud and clear…just started playing…..it’s a song that always makes me smile and want to dance…I used to play it when I had boyfriend problems…now, I’m having “other” kinds of problems…still makes me smile…Mary J Blige’s “I’m Fine”:

So, I know I’ll be fine…just have to keep telling myself that..now let’s make it through this cycle with at least one healthy egg that will become a baby…that’s all I’m asking for is one 😉