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So, I just went in to my RE’s office to have my Stim Day 6 ultrasound check. I’m on IVF#2 right now. They see around 4-6 follicles…11.5-8 range…they are growing faster this time around(please don’t let me stim for 17 days like last time :(. The only thing different is that instead of birth control before stims, I used estrogen pills.

So, to me, that’s not bad news. I only have one ovary and 4-6 follicles seems good to me…well, maybe not good…but decent enough…I’m looking for ONE AMAZING EGG folks…not a kindergarten class…

But then, there’s my lining. I’ve never seen it above 5. Last cycle, that’s what it grew to and so we froze my one baby morula stage embryo.

Now, we haven’t done much for the lining. I took some extra estrogen to try to help it grow…but it got to 5..and that’s it. I know that this could be a problem. But today, my very sweet Dr., just casually mentioned, “Well, after we get these embryos, what are we going to do with them if your lining doesn’t cooperate”

And that was it folks….the waterworks and tears began pouring down. ๐Ÿ™

I haven’t even began to think about that….Surrogacy?? What?

I mean…wait…wait..wait….we haven’t tried ALL the tricks yet! Sure a little estrogen is supposed to do the trick…but apparently, that doesn’t work for me…so on to the next trick. Endometrial scratch? Viagra? G-CSF?

I will LITERALLY TRY ANYTHING and everything…..before I even THINK about that route.

Gosh, but then of course it made me think…I do have a sister, She’s had 2 babies very easily on her own. She’s done having kids. Would she do that for me? Could she? I don’t know…..Again, I don’t even want my mind to go there ๐Ÿ™

I won’t let it…

So, today got me a little down…and then…with the tears streaming down my face…I picked up my phone to leave and must have accidentally(I don’t really believe in accidents..I know it’s Him ๐Ÿ˜‰ I pressed some buttons as I squeezed the phone in my hand and a song came on…loud and clear…just started playing…..it’s a song that always makes me smile and want to dance…I used to play it when I had boyfriend problems…now, I’m having “other” kinds of problems…still makes me smile…Mary J Blige’s “I’m Fine”:

So, I know I’ll be fine…just have to keep telling myself that..now let’s make it through this cycle with at least one healthy egg that will become a baby…that’s all I’m asking for is one ๐Ÿ˜‰

8 Comments on Stim Day 6 and Talk of Surrogacy????

  1. I love that song too!!!! Its an amazing song to run to as well ๐Ÿ˜‰ Don’t worry girl!! God has you in the palm of His hand and He knows the desires of your heart to carry your own children. Keep trusting in Him and keep saying out loud every time a doubt or worry thought sneaks in…”I WILL carry my own children and the devil has nothing on God!” love ya girl!! no worries!

    • Thank you Elisha! Yes, I know God’s got my back…but thanks for the reminder. Interesting how we forget sometimes ๐Ÿ™ I trust in HIM and I know that, very soon, we will both be pregnant and delivery HEALTHY babies ๐Ÿ™‚ Love ya too!! xoxo

    • Thank you for the hugs ๐Ÿ™‚ I definitely needed that…and it really does feel like a little “virtual hug” when I get sweet comments like this…so thank you and I hope you are feeling better too..hugs back at ya…xoxo

  2. We have a lot in common.. I am day 5 of my second IVF and RE has also suggested that surrogacy could be in the cards for me as well. We’re going to see how this round goes. You’ve probably heard this already, but I’ll risk repeating it because it could really help –acupuncture’s goal in the stim phase before transfer is to prepare your lining so that it’s thick and fluffy, something to consider. Still time for your lining to thicken in this cycle, I’ll be cheering you on!

    • Thanks jennergetic ๐Ÿ™‚ Yes, we have a LOT in common. Now, we just need to be pregnant at the same time and it will be perfect ๐Ÿ˜‰ I know it will happen soon for the both of us! Cheering you on as well! xoxo

  3. Iโ€™m sorry to have to deal with thin lining issues too. Donโ€™t give up on this cycle just yet, there is still some time for your lining to plump up a bit. Jenn had a great point about acupuncture. Some women find it really helps their lining. Iโ€™m not sure it has made a big difference for my lining, but it definitely helps me relax and stay more positive during my cycles. Another thing that is relatively easy to do and important for our bodies is to drink plenty of water and stay hydrated. I am on the go all day for my job and am usually really bad about this, so I bough a BPA free water bottle for Christmas to help me track how much Iโ€™m drinking. Whole Belly wrote a nice post related to this with a fun recipe for Cucumber Lemon Mint Water. I totally agree with you about wanting to explore all option for your lining. One thing that my RE has tried for my lining are FETs with estrogen/progesterone. One advantage over a stim cycle is that you can stay on the estrogen for quite a number of days to wait for your lining to thicken up. Please do share any ideas you and your RE come up with. Sending lots of energy your way.

    • Thank you auclairedelune! Appreciate the advice. I think we are headed down the FET route and I am fine with that…in the end, all that matters is that I have a healthy, comfy environment for those embryos, so it will be worth the wait ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks again! xoxo

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