It’s funny that I write that because…..I have no choice but to wait. I have no choice. Some of you reading this have no choice. But….to….wait…….
We have so many choices in life…but this one….WHEN we are going to have a baby….it’s not really up to us….
I’ve tried that…I’m taking ALL of the supplements…I’ve read ALL of the books and googled everything. I’m going to acupuncture every week. Taking the herbs she recommends. I Have a Reproductive Endocrinologist. I’ve had ALL of the surgeries he suggested. I stuck myself with 5 needles a day. I’ve been through the “holy grail” of IVF…thought that would give us our baby…that’s what happens with most people…right?………
But no baby…more waiting….
And yesterday, when I needed answers, I read this from my daily devotional:
“I am working on your behalf. Bring Me all your concerns, including your dreams. Talk with Me about everything, letting the Light of My Presence shine on your hopes and plans. Spend time allowing My Light to infuse your dreams with life, gradually transforming them into reality. This is a very practical way of collaborating with Me. I, the Creator of the universe, have deigned to co-create with you. Do not try to hurry the process. If you want to work with Me, you have to accept My time frame. Hurry is not in My nature. Abraham and Sarah had to wait many years for the fulfillment of My promise, a son. How their long wait intensified their enjoyment of this child! Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses.
“For with You is the fountain of life;
in Your light do we see light.” Psalm 36:9
And now….I get it. I always knew deep down that it’s not on my time. I’ve been trying to force it to happen though…..and that’s not how it works….
I CAN wait to have a baby
I WILL wait to have a baby
And WHEN I am blessed with a child, I will understand that THIS is the time….THIS is my time…
My time to have a baby…..when will that be?
2014? 2015? I guess we will all have to wait and see…….