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CAN’T WAIT.

It’s funny that I write that because…..I have no choice but to wait. I have no choice. Some of you reading this have no choice. But….to….wait…….

We have so many choices in life…but this one….WHEN we are going to have a baby….it’s not really up to us….

I’ve tried that…I’m taking ALL of the supplements…I’ve read ALL of the books and googled everything. I’m going to acupuncture every week. Taking the herbs she recommends. I Have a Reproductive Endocrinologist. I’ve had ALL of the surgeries he suggested. I stuck myself with 5 needles a day. I’ve been through the “holy grail” of IVF…thought that would give us our baby…that’s what happens with most people…right?………

But no baby…more waiting….

And yesterday, when I needed answers, I read this from my daily devotional:

“I am working on your behalf. Bring Me all your concerns, including your dreams. Talk with Me about everything, letting the Light of My Presence shine on your hopes and plans. Spend time allowing My Light to infuse your dreams with life, gradually transforming them into reality. This is a very practical way of collaborating with Me. I, the Creator of the universe, have deigned to co-create with you. Do not try to hurry the process. If you want to work with Me, you have to accept My time frame. Hurry is not in My nature. Abraham and Sarah had to wait many years for the fulfillment of My promise, a son. How their long wait intensified their enjoyment of this child! Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses.

“For with You is the fountain of life;
    in Your light do we see light.” Psalm 36:9

And now….I get it. I always knew deep down that it’s not on my time. I’ve been trying to force it to happen though…..and that’s not how it works….

I CAN wait to have a baby

I WILL wait to have a baby

And WHEN I am blessed with a child, I will understand that THIS is the time….THIS is my time…

My time to have a baby…..when will that be?

2014? 2015? I guess we will all have to wait and see…….

8 Comments on I Can’t Wait To Have A Baby

  1. I also had that same devotional and I meditated on it for a bit. While I was thinking about Abraham and Sarah’s story I remembered that Sarah tried to “rush” things by having Abraham sleep with her servant. This caused jealousy, bitterness, and heartache. Ishmael also became a leader of one of the warrior tribes. eek! It was a reminder that we can rush things and then mess up things, but if we wait upon the Lord and His timing then we won’t have to fear making a mess of our situation. Thank you for posting this. I needed the reminder again today 🙂

    • You are welcome! I just think that it is so true. It will happen for us, one way or another…and when it is supposed to happen. Rushing things just doesn’t work. Thank you for your comment and continued prayers sent your way too! 🙂

  2. I am so with you on this one. I’ve been doing this for years–the controlling, the freaking out because time is going by. Feeling desperate because I have tried everything and yet nothing happened.For the past few weeks however, I feel calm. I feel like it will happen when the time is right. I don’t know how long the calm will last but, for now, I savor every moment of it 🙂

    • Thank you for making me feel like I’m not the only one 😉 I’m feeling more and more calm about it. It’s hard when EVERYONE around me is getting pregnant at the drop of a hat but I understand that my time will come….when it’s meant to be 🙂 I’ll savor these moments as well…thank you for your support! 🙂

  3. I just happened upon your blog, and was feeling sorry for myself…until I read your post. When God wills it, it will be. And because of the wait the journey will be ever more sweet. Thank you for posting from your devotional!!

    • Thank you buckrugerlayla! I’m glad my devotional helped! That’s why I started this blog in the first place…to try to help one another! Hopefully 2014 will lead to BFP’s for us all 😉 Good luck with your journey and I’ll be following ya!

  4. For some reason there is not a place to post a comment on your IVF #2 post, so I’m posting it here. I love, love, love your positive thinking! It will happen for you this year! Thinking about you and I hope everything goes well along the way!

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