Quote from an email I just received from one of my closest friends
“Well friends, we thought we were done having kids but oops, I’m pregnant again!”
Oops???….it’s so nonchalant…like “Oops, I forgot to close the garage”, “Oops, I spent too much money on that skirt”…but “Oops, I’m pregnant again”????
Blows my mind. Talk about taking something for granted. I don’t think that there is one thing that gets under my skin more than that. Now, of course, I’m happy for my friend (o.k…friends because it happened TWICE…no joke..this friend emailed and then 1 day later we got another…”I’m pregnant” email from another friend in the same circle……
I’m almost numb to all of this. Almost.
See, I’m trying to see my journey more like a part-time job. I’m not kidding. If I have too many emotions into it…I just know it won’t work for me…mentally. If I look at it as a part-time job, then…I just have to do what I have to do….to achieve my goal…simple, right?!
Yep…it was also my birthday the other day. 36. I thought by this time, I would have 3 kids and be happy. Well, I am happy. I just want to be HAPPY, happy. You see, I have this group of 8 friends. Everyone now, except me, is either pregnant or has kids. Pretty much makes you feel left out. ALL they want to talk about are their kids. Now, I get it…kind of. If I had a kid or kids, i guess that’s what I would talk about most. But for me, I don’t have that and so I have nothing to offer to the conversation. Just feels lonely….ya know?
O.k…I don’t want to turn this into a “poor me” post. I am happy with my life and next week at this time I’ll be sticking myself with needles to create a baby. So you’re saying I’ve got a chance!? YES….so I’ll end with that….I might not “accidentally” be able to get pregnant…but this $18,000 I’m spending…..life savings…let’s do this…I’m ready for my chance…my “oops” to become a reality 🙂