Month: August 2013

My HSG Experience & Acceptance

If you’re reading this, you’re either thinking about having an HSG or have had an HSG or are just curious about the whole process.

I read through TONS of blogs and comments on websites regarding the HSG experience……and I was TERRIFIED. The things that people write and how they explain things is….well….DRAMATIC. Now mind you, it’s not the most pleasant thing in the world….BUT I read things from ladies on other blogs and sites that said “it felt like I was dying”….seriously?! I mean, I’m sure that everyone has different thresholds of pain….but come on……if that felt like you were dying, how in the world are you going to go through childbirth??

This was my experience:

I took about 800mg of ibuprofen 1 hour before the procedure. I drove there by myself. Checked in, changed into the gown and went into the radiology room. The radiologist asked if I was allergic to iodine(because that’s what they use to fill up the uterine cavity) and explained what was going to happen. I laid on the table first and they took an xray with nothing inside of me. Then it all felt a little like a pap smear at first. The balloon then went in and the pressure of the dye. There is some pressure….but I would say it’s more of a “weird” feeling than actual “hurt”. I do have a pretty high threshold for pain though, so maybe it is me. I did actually hold the nurses hand because the radiologist kept having me move around and turn to different sides to get better views. All in all it took about 1 hr from check in to finish.

Now for the results….not good. This is when I wish my husband was there with me 🙁 They told me that, the dye was “puddling up” in one area and there seems to be a lot of scar tissue around my ONLY tube. So my tube was blocked. And worse, it looks like I have something called “hydrosalpinx” as well. Hydrosalpinx (I didn’t even know what that meant) but blocked tubes…I did. Tears began to flow and I was beside myself. Knowing what that meant. Most likely IVF.  I was devastated.

As I changed back into my regular clothes, tears continued to overflow. I couldn’t stop. And this is where…if you believe in God or not….someone was watching over me. A lovely older woman, asked if I was o.k., she took my hand and asked if I wanted her to pray for me….and I did. I was inconsolable. At that moment…when you’re alone….and flashes of everything you have read and heard about IVF go through your head…..alone….having someone…a stranger…see you helpless and offer their hand and comfort…..made me believe in human kindness again. She took my trembling hands and placed them in hers and prayed. A sense of peace came over me. Now, I am not overly religious but I do believe in God and I believe that we all have our life path. It made me realize, this must be my path. And I accepted it…right then and there…..

Throughout my life….I’ve had ups and downs. But…some of the downs…brought me to where I am today….and I have to be thankful for it all. And I am thankful for this diagnosis. Though it seems I’ve been given a “bad break”….I get it. I get that it took me years to finally break into my career field…but I did it. I felt like I would NEVER find the man I was meant to marry in L.A…..and I did. And this….well, I just know that this is the way that we will create our family. This is the way it is supposed to be…meant to be. I am so very thankful that we are living in a day and age that we have the option of IVF. That there is the technology to help us safely create a life, outside of the body, and have it transferred into our womb to continue growing….a true miracle.

I know my journey has just begun….but I know that one day I will be holding a miracle…my miracle.

I know in my heart….and I won’t give up until I do.

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Testing..1,2,3..

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When you’re trying to get pregnant and can’t, it’s one of the most frustrating things..well, ever. 

You’ve read all the books, you’ve stuck that thermometer in your mouth every morning at 7am(BBT), you’ve bought those OPK ovulation kits and done it at the perfect times, you’ve drank the juice, taken the vitamins and SHOULD be pregnant!

So why am I not?

And this is where ALL of the testing comes into play…..BUT FIRST….let me give you a tip:

TIP #1:

If your insurance doesn’t cover Infertility, then, most likely, anything you do with a Fertility Specialist won’t be covered 🙁

You can actually get some of your testing covered first by either going to your General Practitioner or OBGYN. Either way, if you go to your General Practitioner, tell them you’re tired and they will run a HUGE blood panel, usually all covered by insurance. And, usually, your OBGYN will do some testing before sending you to a Fertility Specialist anyways. Simply saying that you’ve been trying to get pregnant or you have pain or spotting during your cycle should get some tests covered.

I found out the hard way and was charged for EVERYTHING 🙁 Even things that I could have gotten covered by insurance I was charged for because I went straight to a Fertility Specialist. I guess it’s just the way they code it on the insurance claim so please learn from my mistakes.

Speaking of tests…here are two of the basic blood tests that they will first run:

FSH:

Day 3 FSH level FSH interpretation for DPC Immulite assay
Less than 9 Normal FSH level. Expect a good response to ovarian stimulation.
9 – 11 Fair.  Response is between normal and somewhat reduced (response varies widely). Overall, a slightly reduced live birth rate.
11- 15 Reduced ovarian reserve. Expect a reduced response to stimulation and some reduction in embryo quality with IVF. Reduced live birth rates on the average.
15 – 20 Expect a more marked reduction in response to stimulation and usually a further reduction in embryo quality. Low live birth rates. Antral follicle count is an important variable.
Over 20 Very poor (or no) response to stimulation.

AMH:

Interpretation
AMH Blood Level
High (often PCOS)
Over 3.0 ng/ml
Normal
Over 1.0 ng/ml
Low Normal Range
0.7 – 0.9 ng/ml
Low
0.3 – 0.6 ng/ml
Very Low
Less than 0.3 ng/ml

These two, at least from my Dr., are apparently the ones that are most important.(obviously there are A LOT more)

To give you an idea of where my numbers fall (I always wanted to see what other women’s numbers were to compare):

FSH: 12.8

AMH: 0.62

So….not that great 🙁 Actually, when my Dr. saw those numbers he immediately freaked me out and said, “We need to get out whatever eggs you have left ASAP” Ummmmm….way to make a girl stay calm…thanks Doc

Next step…. HSG(oh joy)